Learn To Pause... Or Nothing Worthwhile Will Catch Up To You

Its been 8 days since my last post. Damn it. I told myself that i would post stuff on this thing everyday. Well too late now. Anyway i have nothing new to say really. Nothing exciting happens anymore. Hailey is still annoying. I had some problems with Kelsey. (its all better now i suppose) Regina is getting more and more snarky and snappy everyday. The other day Mia told her that she should sing for our talent show thing so we can raise money for finanical aid for our school and she was like no and got all up in Mia's biz about it and was like yelling and i thought that she was about to hit someone. I mean shes good! No good doesn't cover it. She's AMAZING at singing and she knows it so i dont know why she would get to snarky about it. She's been singing infront of over 100 people since she was 11! and there's only going to be like 40 people there. Maybe. Whatever. Personally i think that Hailey is spreading her disease on her. Thats just my own personal conspiracy theory though... *sigh* Taylor is having some friend trouble and i feel bad for her because she always has problems with her friends. I dont know why she even wastes her time on them. She can do MUCH MUCH better than those shitty people. They suck and i dont like them. Riley, of course, is drifting but i dont even care anymore. Her problem. Ive wasted too much time on making her happy and all she does is just brush it off so whatever to her. And MaryKate. Well im about to pop her head off right now. We have feild day coming up and shes captain for basketball and all she does is complain about how she doesn't even know the rules and then whenever someone offers to take over for her shes all like "oh no its fine i'll do it." and its like what the fuck? and then she just goes off and says how all the girls should go out and by the pink nike shorts that everyone in the world has and they're not exactly the cheapest things in the world either for everyone to get!!!! And i always have really good snackies so i share with anyone who wants any and shes ALWAYS taking my food and taking it by the handfuls too!!!!!! and then the second i ask for a piece of gum she gets all in a tiff and is like "no i only have one piece left"(she's lying everytime she says it) and then she goes and gives it to Carly and they munch all day!! she is SUCH a moocher!!!!!! Taylor gives everyone her gum all the time!! She opens a new pack and shes done with it by the end of handing it out to everyone. She SHARES like the rest of us. And today when i had gum that was really good might i add, i said "oh no i only have one piece left" and she was like :( with her face and her and Carly were like "oh we'll split it" and i was like "UH NO! i have ONE piece left and its for ME because i got it yesterday!" and they just gave me a weird look and walked off. Like are you shitting me??????? Of course i was lying but with good reason!!
And really its not even the gum that bothers me its just the fact that she just expects everyone to give her everything and then once someone asks for something in return she just shuts them out saying she "paid them back already" and shit like that. Its unbelievable!
How in the hell does Carly put up with it??
Can you tell im in a crappy mood?
That obvious?
Anywho...today was rainy day carpool and my mom was running late so i went into aftercare and then i left after like 10 minutes and then later Mia texted me saying Joshua had a lisp. and i was like "whaaa??" and she said yeah. And then i thought: "well hey, thats weird, Samson has a small lisp too!" so then we came to the conclusion that i am somehow attracted to lisps.
Thats all for now.
Im going to watch the office and eat ice cream now.
Pip pip cheerio
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All The World Is Birthday Cake, So Take A Piece, But Not Too Much

Today is my birthday. Im 14 and i feel 40. Its just all so weird to me that ive lived and breathed and been a part of the human race for 1 2/5 of a decade. CRAZY!!! Anywho, it snowed today on my birthday and my math teacher Sandy let us go out and run around in it for like 10 minutes but it was really wet and cold so we just kinda went inside after like 2 minutes. And another thing that happened today was that pretty much all of my friends did something for me. Except for Riley. Well i didn't really expect anything from her because we're not really besties or anything but i dont know. I just found it kinda weird. Kelsey was the most generous today though. She made me a GIANT chocolate chip pancake, (not nessecarily to be eaten but it has sentimental value. but thats another story for another day...) she made me a batch of red velvet cupcakes, and chocolate chip cookies (which were extra crispy (just the way i like them!!)) and she made me a GIANT poster as a card. Mia made me a cute little sign for my locker along with Regina, Hailey and Carly. Hailey made me brownies, and Carly made me cookies. Taylor made me brownies and MaryKate did too. So there was some serious food overload (if there is such thing!) but i just felt really special today. Not just because it was my birthday, and the fact that nothing can go wrong on birthdays but just seeing how everyone gave me something or made something for me and ran up to me in the hallway and gave me big bear hugs, and even having the people who i dont hang out with ever or even make small talk to say happy birthday was just so heartwarming. I dont think anyone exactly knew how much my thank you's meant.
If you were to ask me if i thought i was popular, i would say no. If you were to ask me if i thought everyone knew me enough to say hi to me, i would say ehh, maybe. If you were to ask me if i thought people from other classes whom im not friends with at all would tell me happy birthday i would say never. I get by with people at school. I have my super close friends, i have my other close friends, i have aquaintances friends and i have people who are just there. I feel like i just blend in. Im not really one to go out and make friends randomly. I go to a small school. The people who i went to kindergarten with are the ones that are still with me in my classes and are the ones who are going to be standning next to me on the graduation podium. I GET BY. Im a social person (at least i like to think so) and i dont mind being nice to people. Its just the fact that i felt so popular today and i felt like a movie star. I felt like nothing could stop me. And nothing did. I got a 100 on my math test. I got the highest grade in my entire lit class on my lit quiz. I was handing out baked goods like freaking Willy Wonka! I just felt so bright and happy and special and this is one birthday that i wont forget.
Ever.