I know that this sounds creepy. And no, im not a stalker or some kind of creeper or pedophile or anything like that. And no, im not involved with the law or the mob of Jehova's Witnesses or anything like that either. IM THE ONE BEING WATCHED. By who other than Joshua!! ding ding ding! You know, im sure he's not that creepy, he can just come off sa creepy because he's just so freakishly tall and he hangs his head down low, trying to look shorter. I think that he does that because everyone just see's his height, but i mean, its kinda hard to miss! He's probably 6'5 or something but all i know is that i come up to about 2 inches below his shoulders and im 5'7 personally. So you can kinda get a picture of how much of a mammoth this kid is. But ive never really talked to him...
FLASHBACK: it was like the second or third week of school (of this recent school year) and he was sitting on the long brick wall type thing for carpool (where we all are always) He was alone. He probably didn't have any friends yet but all i saw was that he was alone, basking in the sun, his black hair slightly frayed out, giving him a look like he had just run in the wind. I notice him first, squinting my eyes to avoid burnt retinas and i spot him. Im waiting for my mother to pick me up and im standing with MaryKate. I say, "Poor kid, he must be kind of out of his element. Should we go talk with him?" MaryKate agrees and the next thing you know im sitting about 6 inches away from him which MaryKate is leaning against a small waist-high lamp light thing. We make small talk: Which class are you in? What sports do you play? How do you like it here so far? (He's new) After the interrogation, our rides are here and we leave him, sitting there to recolect and think about the awkward conversation he had with some pretty off-thier-rocker girls.
And now ive noticed him looking at me. In the hallways whenever i pass by. When i come down the stairs to the commons and he's standing in the general square where the stairs, the hallway the commons and the water fountain/bathrooms/Paul's office is. I notice him. I glance at him because i know he's always looking, and i try to shrug it off. Its not like i can just walk up to him and be like "WHy ARE YOU STARING AT ME???????" and then just have him be like "Wha...???"
But here's another thing before i leave to do homework: One time it was raining outside. He plays basketball everyday on the court that is seen through the commons windows. But if its raining, they cant play outside so normally they just chill in the commons. So i can back from grabbing lunch with Kelsey, Mia, MaryKate and Carly (i think it was them...) and he's sitting in the commons back turned to me in the red chairs. His friends Johnathan and Nate are sitting on the red couch facing me and the door. As i return the sweatshirt to Chris (who gave it to me because i didn't have an umberella and i was wearing a dress) i take my lunch which Kelsey held for me while i stripped off the wet jacket, and all of the sudden Nate calls my name. I look over and he says - in front of EVERYONE in the commons, mind you - "HE LIKES YOU!!!!!" and he points to Joshua. My face goes blank, no emotion to cross it. I hate it when people do that to me. THEY ALWAYS DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS! But as im walking past the corner, i try to walk slow so that Joshua can turn around and say "Oh no thats not true, he's just kidding!" but he doesn't. All of the sudden his head just drops and im left there with a question thats still embeded in my mind right now writing this: Does that mean that he really likes me? I mean, if he didn't he would have said so when Nate yelled that out but he didn't. Is that why he watches me whenever im around?
I want answers, and i plan to get them on friday. Keep you posted...
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