Sunday, February 14, 2010

Vday = Dday



I hate valentines day. I dont think you understand, I HATE it!!!!!!! Its the worst day in the world. Its not even a real holiday!! But i probably would like it if i had a significant other (which i dont...sadly) and i could spend time with him and do valentines day stiff. I dont really know what you would do for your boyfriend on valentines day if you were 14 years old. Hmmm.........
Back to real-life:
Today i talked to Samson for the first time in a long time. We haven't talked in weeks. But here's the thing: We dont talk in person. Never have. Doubt we ever will. Actually, NEWS FLASH: we have talked. Over a year ago on Jekyll Island for a science feild-trip and the only reason was that he was in my group and we had to communicate for Jepordy. Oh and we also talked cuz we had the same sand and we had to figure out were it was from. Also at god-forsaken Jekyll Island. I hate that place as much as i hate valentines day.
Back to present day: We talked. Right now he's at dinner and he said he would be back, but we'll see about that. Hes notoriously known to randomly sign off. Back to how we talk. I know him. Its not like he's some dude i found on Facebook or off the web. I know him. Ive known him for some time now. We were in orchestra together for 3 years, 1 of which we actually knew each other existed. And i see him in the hallways and he was there the day it blizzard-ed. He was one of the boys i mentioned. But i used to like him. And he used to like me. I liked him for a long time and he liked me back for a long time but we never told each other. I just cant do stuff like that. The way i knew was my best friend since 4th grade Kelsey milked him. She texted him and asked him and he, being the silly boy he is, told her the truth, not knowing that i would be right there and that she would tell me. Just a couple weeks ago i was the one texting him! I pretended to be Kelsey and i asked him. What oculd i have done??? I NEEDED ANSWERS!!!!!!!!!
So i asked him. He said he liked me but he didn't know how much. He rated me from 1 to 5 (1 being hate and 5 being love)a 3. RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE!!!!! God i hate it when he does that. But now i dont know if he likes me and i dont know if i like him or if i ever DID like him.
Im confused. Im uncertain. And im caught on what to do.
So this is the inbetween, huh?

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